katie, ben and lucy

There have been rare occasions in my life where a love so deep has brought tears to my eyes.  In fact, I can only think of two.  The first of course would be Benjamin.  I never in a million years would have believed that I would be one of those lucky people to find the love of their life so easily.  One day we’re “just friends” climbing rocks together and playing video games till 3:00am; the next day, we’re “just friends” who have, quite literally, accidentally fallen in love with each other.  Ben was the best accident I could ever wish for.  Thinking about how wonderful and fulfilling life has become, with him now in it, overwhelms me to the point of tears.

I now have those same overwhelming feelings for our little Lucy.  I was holding her the other day, thinking  about the whole process from start to finish… the idea that Ben and I created this absolutely perfect, beautiful, little being… that she spent 9 months  growing in my belly… and that it truly was a miracle and a blessing to experience giving birth to this 8 ½ pound baby.  All of that waiting, and ”poof”… here she is.  This special little person, and my love for her, simply consumes me in the most amazing way. 

From that, I now understand Mother’s Day in a whole different way.  Yes, I have always appreciated how lucky I have been to have my mom as “Mom.”  She has always been there for me… as a parent, a guide, a counselor, and a friend.  I feel like I have been blessed to have such a special relationship with both of my parents… the love, the trust, the honesty, and the communication we have always shared.  But, I now have a whole new perspective on that love between us:  what it has meant to them as parents, and what it now means to me as a new mom.